To be able to believe in god, one must:
Either accept that God is NOT all powerful and can not stop evil,
Or that he IS all powerful and chooses not to stop evil.

I believed in god until I worked in labor and delivery.

People used to say to me, "how can you hold a newborn baby in your arms and NOT believe in God?" For me, after I held the dead ones, it was hard TO believe.

I don't want to dwell long on the bad, the evil. But I need to get it out, and be done with it.