Work-a-holic Barb, who woulda thought?

Looking forward to New Year's Eve and New Year's Day. I have both of them off, and New Year's Eve is our anniversary. 4 years. Not sure what we are going to do yet. I've been at work so much, almost every night. Its starting to take its toll. Royce is home sick tonight, without me. I haven't seen the kids for days. Royce is missing me. My house is a disaster. So a couple of nights off will be nice. I have to work like this for awhile as long as they let me, but when I am done, maybe Feb or March, I am going to use my PTO, take like 2 weeks off, and just be at home with family and my house. Looking forward to it. I'm ok right now being at work, its actually a nice place to be, but its taking its toll on my personal life. Like I told a co-worker, relationships are like gardens - when they aren't tended, weeds pop up and flowers die. I need to be careful. I just so need the money right now. I'm such a money whore. We need a new heating /air conditioning unit (about $5000), we have no heat in the house right now. We need to either fix Royce's little car or buy another used one for him to get to school in by Feb. I am behind on the housepayment, need about $5000 for that. Great, I know. And dental work for everyone, and home repairs, and etc, etc, etc, - so much. So I have to do this. I'm actually very fortunate I have the ability to do this, and that work isn't hell. I definately look at it like that too. I am very lucky. To give you an idea of my schedule, the next work schedule is for 4 weeks, starts tomorrow Dec. 30th and goes thru Jan 26. As of right now, I have only 4 of those nights off - the 31st and 1st for our anniversary, the 7th for a dental appointment for Tyler and to go out that night with friends, and the 18th which is Ryan's birthday. We are talking mucho dinero. But a toll on the family. But I just have to do it. And toll on my body. I don't even have time to squeeze in a much needed doctor's appointment for me and my lovely tumor. I keep hoping I'll see Dr. Bronitsky at work here and can talk to him. But he rarely comes in at night. Oh well. A little while longer won't kill me. I'm very fortunate that I get to work every night with Darcy. She is officially my new "mom". We spend more time with each other, every night - all night long, than we do with our family. I love her. I really do. She makes me a better nurse, and a better person all the way around. My New Year's Resolution is to be like her.