Well, I survived Christmas.

For some reason this year was particularly unrewarding, and I came to the conclusion that I hate Christmas. The kids however informed me that they thought it was a great Christmas, and I guess thats all that matters. At least to me. I really felt like it was a slim Christmas this year, but they all seemed to love their presents and seemed satisfied with everything.

I still hate Christmas.

Didn't blog a whole lot this last year I see. It was a bad health year for me. Looking forward to a new healthier year.

Just want to say hi to Susan. It has been very nice getting in touch with you. I'm flattered that you've been here - this has always been a place open to everyone - no one is ever intruding. Don't know how much you've read - its basically been my place to express. Very therapeutic at times. Occasionally gotten me in trouble. I've been quiet over the last year, just cause I've been sick, but I'm still here. I somehow think this next year is going to be a very different year for me. To be honest, I never thought I'd be talking to you. I always just kind of admired you from afar. Especially back then. You are one of those people that I always thought was a really good person. Who deserved good things. I'm hoping life has treated you well and am very happy for you if it has. I still think you are beautiful. We have all changed since then, and I know you think you have - but I think who you were in my head back then will forever be etched in my brain. I don't think how I saw you is very different from how anyone saw you. To me, you were the most popular, prettiest girl in school. And so much of me wanted to be you for just one day. And there were so many times I saw you be kind to people that no one else was kind to - at least no one in the group you were in, the group everyone wanted to be in - and when you didn't know anyone was looking. But I saw it. And thats why I liked you.

Wow - such a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away............

And I can't believe you see me the way you do.

Just wanted to say hi. And really glad we talked. Hope we will keep talking.

The eclipse was very frustrating - we had clouds everywhere. Couldn't see anything. Can't believe it fell on Winter Solstice.