Birthdays, Sunsets, and The Dharma Initiative

Found a new fascinating blog. Thanks to Stacey's blog.
http://www.jen-johnson.com/jen_vs_the_bible/
Step by step reading through the Bible, starting at Genesis - by an atheist.
Interesting. And funny.

Had a nice birthday. Was so nice to see Nikki, and Steph and Lona. All the kids made me cards, even Tyler, I almost had a stroke. Short and sweet, but still a card. The other kids cards were so cute. Went shopping. Was just a very nice day. Now I am 39. Only one year left in my 30s.

Lyndsey had her birthday on the 10th. She is 11. Was also a very fun day. She liked all her presents, we all went to the zoo - hand fed the giraffes, rode a camel. Lots of fun. Then went to The Rain Forest Cafe. Seems we always go there on birthdays. Her dad got her an I-Touch. She loves listening to music, and gadgets. It was a great present for her. She had a fun day.

We finally finished the 4th season of Lost. The 5th season doesn't come out on DVD until Oct.27, and let me tell you - we are LOST. Absolutely lost not able to watch it. Can't wait. Then in February season 6. We left off with the Oceanic 6 getting off the island, and glimpses of the future - not good ones. And lots of questions. Like is Claire really dead? Why the hell did she stay with the good Doctor? How do they all convince each other to go back? How did Locke die? Why did no one come to the funeral? How are Sawyer and Juliet on the island? Did Jin really die? And what the fuck is up with Michael? How does Hurley get out of the funny farm? Is Charlie really dead (hope not). And where is Ben?

Got the first 2 seasons of Dead Like Me to watch in the mean time. Like the show, but it just isn't as good. We are in withdrawal. Gotta love the grim reapers clocking in at the beginning of the show though.

Sawyer is so hot.

Haven't really been ready to talk about it till now, but its time. I broke my sobriety at the beginning of September. It was a conscious and sober decision. I just felt ready. It was on an anniversary. And it is much easier than I anticipated. Its so nice to just sit and have a few beers, to take a break, to relax, and to really enjoy what I am drinking, rather than completely fading and escaping. And I haven't done that once. I actually think I have worked out my issues. The other day got to cook at home, made soup, and had some wine while cooking. That is so much fun. Especially when it is cool outside, and cooking warm yummy stuff inside.

The kids have been off this week, and have been spending lots of time with them. It has been fun, just lounging around, sleeping in, having them home all day. Went to Hole-In-The-Rock a few times. At sunset. It was spectacular. For those of you not from Phoenix, it is a desert park smack dab in the middle of town with these huge rocks called the Papago Buttes, and one of them has this huge non-man-made hole right at the top of it. It must have been a bubble in some volcanic explosion a long time ago that popped and left this huge hole. You climb up to it, and you can see like the whole phoenix area. Its beautiful, especially at sunset. Amazing actually.

Been really enjoying the kids lately. And the Homefront.

Went off my medicine. It was just causing too many problems for me. I would rather just deal with "me". Up, or down. I am actually doing very well. Am feeling good. I just need to keep myself in check. I know I'm playing doctor and god, and going against everything everyone has told me to do. But I have to live in my skin, and wake up in my head. And this is what I choose.

I got a pin for being at my job here in Scottsdale for a year. And I got a raise. My anniversary was on the 13th. I always feel so grateful that I have such a great job, and have kept it, and will continue to have it. It really is a great place to work. And the pay is good. Good all the way around. I am so fortunate, especially nowadays.

I was in danger of losing my house for a long time. And it is finally out of danger. Big relief. My house also has been a big stressor for me, so much needs done. Bought some stuff recently and cleaned a lot of stuff, and am feeling much better about it. Its feeling like my space. One I want to be in. The kids are happy with this too. They notice.

And its Halloween Time. What else can I say. Now that I am getting back to being "me" I am getting back in the Witchy frame of mind. And its so nice here now. A chill in the air.

Life is good.
Namaste.