And of course, I didn't work that night. Of course. But I will still have 8 extra hours on this check. I tried. Have been cooking some at home, chicken, roasts. It feels good to cook again. I couldn't for awhile cause we didn't have a stove. Sydney has been sick yesterday and today, and Lyndsey today, so they have been home with me, going to the store, resting, chilling. Its been nice. Cooking a beef roast tonight that I marinated for a few hours, and we got a fire log too, so we will have a fire outside tonight. Hopefully Tyler and Taylor will be over too. My back and stomach have been killing me lately. The doctor thought I might have an ulcer, and that would make alot of sense with the way I am feeling. No matter what I eat I am sick. Had diarrhea for days, and everytime I eat my back hurts. Tylenol and Motrin aren't really helping. I've taken some lifesaving Protonix, but it doesn't seem to be doing much either. Maybe the answer is to just stop eating for awhile. I'm sure I would survive. I've got so much to do and to clean in the house. Getting it done slowly. It is an urban myth that mom's like it when all of their kids are in school. At least in my case. I will never be one of those go to the salon and shopping while your kids are in daycare kind of mom's. I never looked forward to it, but I kinda thought when they were all in school, like this year, that it would mean a little time for me. But I hate it. I absolutely hate being home alone. I get very depressed. Especially between the hours of 12 noon and 3 pm. Its weird, but its always those hours. Today isn't bad, cause Syd and Lynds are sitting her by me playing pokemon cards. But when no one is here but me, and I'm not sleeping, its really bad. I feel so much better in the late afternoon and early evening. Love that time. Its cool, kids are about, it just feels good.

Yeah, the up didn't last too long. Really upset too because we were wrong about the release date of Season 5 of lost. It is December 8. I really don't know if I can wait that long.