May Day

Happy May Day!!!

Didn't get to do anything last night for Beltaine. Someday I will be prepared to celebrate every holiday. I did read up alot and study though. Did you do anything Nikki?

Heather - I am reading Twilight right now. Its really good. Written well. And you are right - takes me right back to high school (the good parts of high school). I love it.

Christine - thank you for your comment the other day. I think you are absolutely right - we always want what we can't have.

I am still down 18 pounds - which is totally unexpected because I've been eating really bad and not exercising enough, but still managed to keep it off. I can only attribute it to not drinking. Wow - what an epiphany. Nice side effect - for once. So now I am back on the fitness wagon. Eating better, moving more. Its been 53 days. Almost to 60. (I'm also counting the days till St. Patrick's Day - 319). There were a couple of days last week where I almost gave in. But I didn't, and I guess that's whats important. I want to be a "normie". But I know I need this year to just be "clean". And to think. And if I can't keep my goal, then I really am powerless over it. And that was my huge problem with step #1, that powerlessness thing. I felt it was a completely wrong statement. But if I can't keep my goal, then maybe I am, right?
AA doesn't work for me. It just annoys me. I don't like the "there is only one way to skin a cat" mentality. I can do this for a year, and prove I am not powerless. I don't like that word, or mentality.

Going to meet with Sarah and Lisa again on Sunday. Hopefully this will become a habit.