Mellow Yellow

Feeling better - I think.
Life is just kind of mellowing.
On my second of 3 nights of work.
Stomach is finally getting better.
Been not drinking and careful what I eat.
Finally - its getting better.
Its miserable to work all night hurting.
Went to my doctor for a follow-up and recheck.
Changed BP med and its working better.
Got crappy sleep yesterday -
I'm sure I will make up for it today.
Got my 90 day eval at work and it was really good.
I am so fortunate to have this job -
In this economy right now.
I guess there will always be sick people.
Not going to do anything "special" for Valentine's,
All the money went for other things.
Just going to stay home, sleep, and enjoy my family that night.
Got all my kids chocolate and a stuffed animal.
Syd and Lyndsey both have a science project I have to help them with.
Tyler is in California on a music trip (remember those???).
He is accompanying the choral group.
Who is that reminiscent of?
Memories.
Heather - I hurt for you. I wish we could talk.
I miss you so much.
Every time I go to the Rail to eat breakfast,
I hope you are going to be there.
I wish we could just sit down and talk.

It literally feels chemical.
mellllllooooooooooooooowwwwwnesssssssssssss..............
Like an emotional narcotic.
The pain is still there,
under everything,
You just .........
don't .....................
feel it anymore..............................
Ahh............
Seratonin.............
Maybe that's what I've been missing the whole time.