Tis What It Tis

First of all I'd like to thank Stephen, who left a comment here http://somethinglikelifeblog.blogspot.com/2008/09/imagine.html
for stopping by. And for being so decent. Obviously we have different beliefs, and obviously what I posted struck a nerve, but you were very nice with your words. Thank you - not everyone is this way to me. I appreciate you taking the time to read my post and to comment.

All I can say is that a belief in the Bible is necessary for any of your responses to be meaningful to me. And I no longer believe the Bible. For so many reasons. I appreciate your feelings, and respect your right to have them, but I do not believe that way any longer and it is no longer right for me. I have found a beautiful new belief system and "religion" where I have found my place and have found peace and where I belong. I will never, ever, go back to anything remotely Christian. Yes, there are good people out there who are christian, I have many friends who are, but I will never be part of anything Christian again. Hopefully you are one of those people I can befriend, even if it is only over the web, even though we have different beliefs. Thank you again for stopping by.

Oh, and to answer you question as to when I left: I left when my son was asked to leave. He was formally asked to leave his Christian environment, the only environment he ever knew, was no longer allowed to be part of it. That was my Hallmark moment. I went to my SDA church on Christmas Eve after it happened (a few years ago) and made the pastor officially revoke my membership in front of the congregation. I sat there till he was finished, and the congregation was finished "voting" on it. I went directly, on that bright Sabbath morning, and got a tattoo on my left forearm. "Truth". So I will never forget, and so I will forever be reminded how important truth is. It is right under "Love" on my arm. I see it everyday. There were many, many other moments that either led up to or confirmed my decision, but that was the actual moment I left. And I will never go back. Ever.

I'm trying to get away from the negative, and the recurring theme I have of my distaste for Christians. It is what it is, and I'm in a better place. I did not intend today's post to be about that negativity, but I did think that Stephen's comments deserved a reply.

Had a great birthday with Syd. I can't believe she is 14, or that it was 14 years ago that I had her. A very different time and place ( A Long Time Ago, In A Galaxy Far, Far Away......). We got donuts for her class, we went out to dinner, just her and me, and we ended up getting some new fish and an actual bullfrog. We got him at the Chinese market, he was actually supposed to be someone's dinner, you can buy them live, and we decided to take him home and keep him.

I'm doing low-carb/no-carb again. It seems that it is the only thing that I am consistent with. Tummy feels bad, but this too shall pass (no pun intended). I can actually eat on it, and feel full. And drop weight. We will see. Doing good with ETOH - haven't "stopped", but it is very minimal. Had a shot of vodka with breakfast yesterday. I'm feeling much better with all of that. I guess its just a choice.

Fighting a UTI. I think I just have one big chronic one that never really leaves. The last 3 days have kicked my ass. Back ache, front ache, tired, just that UTI feeling of crappiness. And had to work last night on top of it. And have to work the next 2. You do what you have to do. I know, I know........ I need an antibiotic from a doctor. But I haven't medicated with Jager like I usually do.

Watched "8 Mile" last night. Love Eminem.

Watched hours of that stupid show "Real Atlantic Housewives" or whatever the name is. Stupid ass show, against everything I believe in and is everything that annoys me, but for some unknown fucked up reason I'm sucked into it. Weird.