This is my last post.
There is freedom that comes with writing.
But there can also be freedom with silence.
It has been brought to my attention that there are quite a few people regularly reading this that I would rather not know so much about my personal life.
My children have told me that Kirk told them he reads this for entertainment.
And Ive been told there are alot of people at Tempe Church that read and then question Peggy about me. For some reason the word "alot" surprised me. I didn't know I was that interesting. Pat Long was the only name given to me.
Kirk - I could have provided you with ALOT more than entertainment, if you would have just been nice to me.
And Pat and fellow Sheeple at Tempe Church - please stop bothering my sister. She is not my keeper, nor my spokesperson.
For the last 3 years this has been my place to write. To vent, to express, to mourn, to laugh, and to celebrate. Alot has happened to me in the last 3 years. I have enjoyed writing and it has been very therapeutic for me. And I have made some friends that I never would have made otherwise. And I have grown alot.
That said.................
My loss of Faith, my struggles, my health problems, my grief over my Dad - they were never intended to serve as my ex-husband's source of entertainment, or the subjects of unwanted prayers from a Church that abandoned me.
And to my friends, this is not my link to you. Nothing will change between us.
I can't say I won't ever have another post, but it will not be personal. Barb's blog will not be here anymore when someone needs a good laugh, or someone to pray for. My life will not be here anymore, like an episode of Jerry Springer, so you can watch it and feel better about yours.
And I'm getting to a place where I really don't need to protest anymore, I don't need to defend my position, or to vent. I'm finally confident and comfortable with myself inside. I don't need to defend it anymore. I just need to be still.
My email is still the same: Barbiedoll800@hotmail.com
So for those of you "out there beyond the Wall"........ my last update:
I'm just great.
Have a great new awesome paying job that I'm good at.
My finances are better.
I've beat alcoholism.
I get along with all of my family.
I have a wonderful husband who loves me.
My kids are happy, healthy, and well adjusted.
My life is uneventful and completely fulfilled.
And I've achieved enlightenment.
Ding Dong the Witch is dead.
***POOF****
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Let me know your new blog address....Choose carefully whom you invite. Please think about this. It is you Barb...there will never be another you. Let go of the negative energy completely.
Taking care of yourself. Good call.
And I agree with Heatherlynn.
I understand why you choose to do this. It does suck for those that won't know how to find you but it's ok.
And those that read for pure entertainment will have to go back to television - probably more their style and IQ station anyway. Besides good christians shouldn't be on any websites except for those brought to you by TBN. ;)
Your life is not the sum total of others' derision or curiosity. You know it, I know it, those that love you know it.
And the rest can and will be surprised when they wind up in a hell they had no idea was right around the corner.
Good for you for taking care of youself. Positivity breeds positivity. Magik happens in places free of negativity. Go create that!
You know I love you.
Nikki
Hang on…are you allowed to do this? Are we allowed to just *POOF* stop blogging? Isn’t there some rule against this? Please tell me so….
Ok now seriously…
I thank you for sharing your life with me. I hope you have never seen me as one “watching Jerry Springer”….I have found your genuineness compelling…Your humor often placing a smile upon my face, your thoughts fascinating, I wish you nothing but the best…you could try commenting on my blogs if you would like a change you would be very welcome…
Take care Sweet Angel….
Respectfully,
Livingsword
Barb,
I am a kettlebell person. I have been following your blog ever since Royce stopped blogging.
I am a little sad you have decided to stop blogging... understandable though. It is good to keep certain things to ourselves.
I admire how you were willing to shamelessly put it out there. You write well and I like the spirit of your blog. You are a good person. I cheer (not pray) for you when things go well.
The Buddhists say our Life is an Illusion... dream big, think good thoughts, and stay away from the booze (the ego is already intoxicated).
OK you can't just leave me hanging.
I read your blog as if it is a window to your soul.
There are people out here who need you to blog so they can see their soul more clearly.
Like Me.
I don't want to see you once a year where we say how great our lives are then we go back to our pains and challenges alone.
Please blog.. I am begging you. You were my blogging heroine. You were so in touch absolute honesty that it was admirable.
Not everyone has that capability.
OK check out this link from the front page of MSN: http://isittrue.msn.com/slideshow.aspx?cp-documentid=14037367&imageindex=1&cp-searchtext='Swimming+the+witch'+expression%20&FORM=MSNIIT
Don't let the crowd swim you. Don't let them win. Just blog somewhere else and limit who you tell -c
-C
I agree with Heatherlyn
I mean this is our lives.
It's all we have.
Then it's over.
Such negative energy like claws scratching down your back, trying to take away a beautiful self expression. Protect yourself, but don't stop expressing yourself.
Barb- Do what you need to do.... for yourself and your family. You know who your friends are. Drove by your house today and thought.... I haven't talked to (or read) Barb for a little while. Glad I came on here! Talk or e-mail to you soon. ~Steph~
I went to the coffee store, if you ever read this. And look at the nice responses you've gotten. You touched people's lives, and the ones that were entertained aren't worth the trouble, but it's still really cool to read that you made such a difference. Yes people. You are right. This is Nikki, and I agree. Barb IS worth paying attention to and does teach us and remind us that being "normal" includes all the good AND the bad. And she'll come back when it's safe and where it's safe. And I'm sure she'll let us know where she is so we can catch up. :)
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