Across The Universe

Finally saw "Across The Universe". Tyler kept talking about it. Apparently they have the soundtrack playing non-stop in the background at his new school. It was one of those epiphany moments for me. The first time I heard some of the music when he played it for me in the car one day it brought me to tears. The story is wonderful - the music is gut wrenching. I got it from Netflix along with 2 other movies, and haven't have the strength to return it yet. Also bought the sound track, and it has replaced Amy Winehouse in our car.

Jim Sturgess' voice just gets me, so bad. Brings me to tears.


And the version of "Because" is just haunting. Takes me back to my old Chorale days. There were times I was part of something like this. Those musical moments of talent and emotion and friends and soul where the "planets are aligned", those perfect moments when time and space are in suspension and all that exists is the moment. This one gets me alot.


Tyler and I actually sat down the other night and recorded "All My Loving", me singing and him accompanying me on the guitar (me with an accompaniest, how weird). He has all this really expensive high tech recording equipment and it actually sounds pretty good. I will try to get him to help me put it on here.

The whole movie just does something to me.

I started my Spring garden yesterday. Really just started getting it ready. I have decided to officially start it on Spring Equinox, March 21st. It will mostly be an herb garden with flowers to decorate it. I want to grow my own herbs for cooking and spells. Everything organic.

The sobriety thing isn't going so well. Don't really want to talk about it.

Went to my Yoga class on Tuesday - once again it is so helpful. Its only a beginner's class but I can feel the effects of it all throughout the week.

I've been informed by my mother, in one of her hateful shouting Christ-like moments earlier this week, when I asked her to please not teach my children her religious beliefs, that I am horrible mother and doing bad things to my children, and also that the day will come when I am flat on my pagan face, in all of god's supreme glory, confessing her god's supreme being-ness. I'm sure in the same tone and spirit that Jesus would have told me.

I informed her that if there is a hell she will be right there with me.

And that I have nothing left to say the her - ever.

Yeah, sobriety not going so well. Between working out, yoga and alcohol I think I'll be ok.

Just got back from the gym - did squats and cardio. Feel better already.

Been getting interested in fair trade issues - reading and educating myself. I had no idea. I've started shopping differently. Makes me ashamed to be an American and be a part of it. We are so self-absorbed and indifferent over here. As long as we are comfortable we don't care whose expense our comfort is at. I hate being a part of that. Hate it. Bought a book called "Nobodies", three different particular stories of the trade industry today and modern day slavery. That we are all buying into without even being aware of it. Between that issue and the fact that in about 2 years I will have a son that will be forced to sign up for the draft for this stupid war for oil, I find myself wanting to permanently live in another country.

Going to watch "Super-Size Me" in a few minutes here.

And Stacey - Congrats on the divorce!!!! I remember my divorce date, July 6th 2001 - my Independence day.

Namaste everyone.