Time for a Cool Change

I don't think work has ever stressed me out as much as it has been lately. And that's saying a lot considering I worked at County for 8 years. Its very slow here, but when we do have a patient and a delivery, it is so bad that I am scared for my license. I love working here, love the hospital, love my co-workers, but the doctor is so unsafe that it is only a matter of time before something really bad happens - a dead baby, a short-bus baby, a dead mommy - and I don't want to be here when it does, or have my name on the chart. I'd like to stay out of the courtroom. Or jail for that matter. We had two deliveries recently, one last week and one 2 days ago, where the babies were premature, and he refused to have the moms transferred to a higher level hospital where the babies could be taken care of, and just let them deliver here. The one was EXTREMELY premature (29 weeks) and both babies had to be transported by air to another hospital. I know some night it is going to happen, he won't let us transfer a mom, she will deliver a tiny little baby and all I will be able to do is watch it die. So no more. I'm not going to stand around waiting for the bullet to hit me. I've dodged it so far. So last night I told them I was done, they asked me for 2 weeks, I said I'd give them one. So next week is my last week. I decided to stay at this hospital though, so I am transferring to med/surg. Not thrilled with that, but I'll give it a shot to avoid looking for a new job, the whole orientation process, the getting used to a new facility. The acuity is pretty low here I've heard, and I get to stay in beautiful Tempe. I will still have to see Dr. Dumbass occasionally with his gyn patients, but not nearly in the same way as I am now. He really is causing me to break down. And I can't describe the wave of relief that swept over me last night when I knew I wouldn't have to work with him anymore. 3 more shifts after today. I will finish them before I go to Portland, so when I am up there it will be even more cleansing for me, knowing I don't ever have to do a delivery with him again.

By the way, here's his picture. Isn't he hot?

Darcy and I made a disturbing discovery. There is an uncanny resemblance to the beloved child's cartoon character Arthur. Do you see it? Maybe they are really the same person.

I could probably get in trouble for stating his actual name here, so I won't, but if you are a woman, and recognize this man as the doctor that sits between your stirrups -

RUN FOREST, RUN!!!!

SWIM AWAYYYYYYYYYYY !!!!

Its actually a little nauseating to have his ugly mug here on my space, but wanted to show him off to y'all. (Can you ladies imagine that face down in your "china"?)

Okay enough about Dumbass.

Ahhhhh................... this blog is so therapeutic for me sometimes.

Five days till Portland. Can't wait Nikki.