Versions of Reality

Livingsword, I can tell you didn't grow up in a church - just by your spirit and attitude. I can feel your energy. All comments are always welcome, but the spirit in which you write is appreciated. The not-preaching part. It seems you have found something wonderful for you. You found evidence in the Bible - I however have found no such thing, but the opposite. What you see as "fingerprints" I see as nature. Which is something awesome and wonderful, but which does not validate anything christian to me. Energy yes, - god, not sure. But like I said, I can not deny the presence of god. I also want to read the Koran.

Trailady, I never mind you sharing, but am always glad to hear from you. I also think we have had alot of the same journey, and at this point are going slightly different directions, but that we are overall kind of in the same place. Your comments and thoughts are always welcome.

Cathy, congratulations on the degree! I am so happy for you. I know you worked really hard. I'm always glad to hear from you too.

I think I just need to separate, once and for all, god and any kind of religion. To be open to everything, to follow my instincts, to listen to all that speaks - then I will find truth.

I found a quote recently that made alot of sense to me;
"The more versions of reality you see, the more likely it is that you will be able to find your own truth someday."
Maybe this is why I never found it in christianity - only one version, everyone has blinders on because everything out of their "box" of "truth" is evil, or wrong, or blasphemy. I will only find my place when I am truly "open" to all. I always say, you shouldn't be scared of a different idea, a different view, if your beliefs are strong enough, they will prove themselves. I find that people are fanatically opposed to the "unknown" only because they either aren't confident enough in their own beliefs, are KNOWLEDGEABLE enough in their own beliefs, or they are scared they might not be right. All anger comes from fear.

I've been studying and practicing the Tarot alot lately. Not proficient by any means, but learning. Its amazing how many people want a reading. And I think I have actually helped to some degree everyone that I have done a reading on. I'm taking the opportunity to read and study while I am spending so much time at work these days. I dream of the day when finances are not an issue, when I can have my own little shop, of potions and herbs and spells and all things mystical. My own little shop. Sometimes I fantasize about it. (Maybe we can put it right next to the strip club we are going to own, lol). Will need lots of Harley parking at both places. (I think I'm truly sleep deprived, dreaming while awake.)

This is my 6th night in a row, and am going to work 11 in a row. Work is getting a little tiresome. Getting a little burnt.

Going to the Brass Rail this morning with friends.