Early Cheat Day

Having a hungry day. Weighed myself this morning, after hardly eating and exercizing, and was 175. Almost got hit by a car on my bike ride home, and in the process of avoiding being hit fucked up my bike chain by epileptically breaking, (I'm sure that looked graceful), so that cut my bike ride short. Broke down, had some wine and a Little Debbie when I got home finally (I don't even LIKE Little Debbies). I'm not gonna freak, just gonna count it. Didn't weigh myself when I woke up, scared to. Only got like 4 hours sleep, cause stupid me played on the computer for a few hours. Then I felt the urge to surprise Royce with a BJ. Time well spent, but now I'm tired at work. Still hungry (yes, even after Royce, lol) so got a turkey sub on the way to work.
So far:
Wine ...........................600
Little Debbie..................380
Sub..............................750
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So far.........................1730
Yikes.
I know thats enough already, but I know I'm gonna want some chocolate. I may just make this my cheat day.

(8 hours later)
Definately my cheat day.

3/4 personal pizza........who knows, maybe 600
Hershey Bar...............................maybe 400
Large red soda...........................maybe 400
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Total.............................................3130
And I counted the calories before I went to sleep this morning, which I don't usually do.

I just got home, it is 4:12 am, it was slow and I got sent home early. And I know I'm going to have some wine now. So 3130 plus. I guess it could be worse. But I had been craving pizza for a few days, and I think I got it out of my system. And I couldn't even finish the pizza, I left a slice. It was too much. I started feeling that way at 2 pieces, but decided I would go ahead with the 3rd. And it was that way with the candy bar too. 3/4 is all I could eat. I threw the rest away. Hopefully the cravings are out of my system for about a week, and I will have my wine right now, go to sleep, and when I wake up start my eating good again for a week. Back to my soup, and cottage cheese, and yogurt and chicken. And I will work really hard tomorrow, and for the next week. Not getting on the scale for a few days.

I am not working tonight. Julia needed an extra shift, and I am hogging all the extra shifts, so I took myself off so she can work tonight. It will be nice to see the kids and have a day off and be able to clean up around here a little, and just watch tv or something. I haven't been home or really seen anyone here for 3 days/nights.

I got to see Heather last night. I haven't seen her since my party. We had lunch together and a smoke break together. If you are reading this Heather, I miss you!!! Glad we got to talk. Sorry if I monopolized the conversation, I had to tell you what happened. And got to work with Martin, Jenn, and Kris. Its always a good night when good people are on. I told Martin he was my "bitch" last night - I was training him to triage.

Royce is over there sleeping with Cheyenne right now. He woke up to unlock the door for me, then crashed again. I'm gonna go lay by them.