"Judge me by my size, do you?" - Yoda

Okay everyone, I'm still going to ride my bike, but I'm not going to ride it to work anymore. Thanks for the concern. It really isn't that dangerous, but I guess it freaks me out a little. Ok, I'll stop.

And I'm really not that strong, I didn't do the MC as long as I thought I could. I had to eat. I think I've kept a few pounds off though. Just got to move more and eat better. I think that is the only way.

Tracy, thanks for writing. My husband told me about you, and I think you are amazing. The yoga class (every time I type that I type "yoda" class, can you see it now, "Getting in shape, I need to muchly " [you have to say it with that yoda voice] ) - the yoga class still intimidates me. I'm not sure how to even go about it. I have alot of image issues I guess, that I guess I just need to get over. I'm scared they will be doing these really hard poses and holding them, and I will be the only overweight person there, and the only one who can not hold the pose, like downward dog with my knees bent and my ass up in the air, and I will look stupid and uncoordinated, and REALLY out of shape. Yes, its true, I know this is stupid. And I need to get over it. But it really scares me. I feel like I have to get in shape before I can think about starting a class. That if I need the mental benefits of yoga I need to put a dvd in and do it in the privacy of my own home.

There is a yoga studio very close to home. I will check out when the classes are and how much.

There was something that Royce told me that he read on a blog. It made the statement "medicating with food." I thought this was profound. It really hit home so personal to me. Thats what I do. Medicate with food (among other things - food just has the most calories). The MC did make me totally realize things about food that I never knew about myself. Going without food for 6 days will do that.

Royce is doing so good with his workouts. He is so faithful. No matter how he feels, or what is going on, he never misses a workout. And you can tell. His body is changing. He looks and feels better. I need to do this for him too.

I keep thinking about my Goddess party. I am going to try and have it on the Spring Equinox, March 21, a Wednesday. I believe the actual time of the Equinox is 0007, 7 minutes after midnight. And the party will not be until much later that night, like 5 pm. But that is ok. It will be close. I have lots of plans. Simple, yet very exciting and fun. I want to take everyone to eat at my favorite place. Talk, eat, drink. Relax, enjoy each other. My way of telling my friends how glad I am they are in my life. And then after dinner come back to my house, to my backyard, and we will sit by the fire, talk, do cards, and do a spell for each person. One they picked out ahead of time. I have alot of work to do in my yard and my house. But I am so excited. It will be a way of celebrating getting my house and yard done too, and a reason to do it. Nikki, I so wish you could come. You will be there with me, I know it. And we will do a spell for you. Tell me what kind you want.

My bills are caught up. We are in good standing with the bank, no more restrictions on the account, they gave our visa debit card back, no more overdraws - just as of this last couple of weeks. I am saving all of the kid's child support into a savings account, for something special maybe at the end of the year. We have a wonderful beautiful vehicle. It is insured. Royce is registered for all of his prereqs for nursing school. Things are so much better. So much. After alot of hard work.

And Ryan's birthday is Thursday. My sweet sweet Ry Ry. This year is good so far. Life is good.