Thought I would change a few things. Look ok?

I put a moon phase module on here. Its at the very bottom of the side column,after the last post, as a footer. (This blog thing is hard to learn how to do.)

I've had a few days off. Just cleaning house, spending time with the kids. And lots of thinking.

I bought a new yoga tape. This one is a beginner's tape. I haven't looked at it yet, or tried it. I'm going to try and practice it more often. My insides need it more than my outsides.

My garden is starting to be alive. Little plants are coming up everywhere. So far radishes, carrots, peas, and a very few tomatoes. I planted some flowers in the yard too. I haven't blessed my garden yet. The book I have says I should do that. Will have to do that.

A few days ago I went to a metaphysical book store. Its out on Scottsdale Road, I think just a little south of McDowell. It was wonderful inside. Everything you could ever want. It even had Christian stuff in it. I will have to go back. There are so many books I want to read. So many books, so little time. I am still working on "Memoirs of a Geisha." I read slow. Its a really good book though. Its so funny. Weird funny, not ha-ha. I so relate and am fascinated by all of the eastern cultures I learn about. Especially the Chinese, and now the Japanese after reading this book. Totally fascinates me. And the weird part is, I don't ever associate it with anything to do with Peggy. Is that weird? She is just so not a spiritual person that I guess the whole culture doesn't even remind me of her. Weird. But true.

I'm contemplating going to an equinox/rites of Spring festival. There is one tomorrow night, and one on Sunday. We'll see. Royce said he would go with me. He always so supports me in everything.

I wrote a post the other day. A long one. It seems sometimes there is so much negativity and unrest inside me. I'm currently trying to dispel all negativity from inside and outside me. Not to change who I am, but to surround myself with good things. Positive things and people. The post was dark, and sad, and very very angry. Even hurtful to a chosen few. I erased it later that night. I figured I wasn't in my right head. So I probably shouldn't post it unless I really was sure I meant all of it. There is alot of anger in my soul. Alot of turmoil. Turmoil and anger and conflict. Sometimes it just eats and eats away. The sense of peace I had in the bookstore the other day was phenomenal. Christianity hasn't brought me any peace. Maybe something else can.

I think the basis of the post, what I was really trying to say, is that to make sense of the turmoil inside I have to come up with a new definition of something. Atheism. I can not deny the god I feel, but I can no longer accept or have anything to do with the Chrisian god. Those are conflicting statements. So I have decided I am a christian atheist. Your god - all of you pathetic, self-righteous, arrogant Christians out there - is not my god. Your god does not exist. My god is something and somewhere. I just don't know what or who. I will pray and live the best way I know how. And it is not as a Christian. Want nothing to do with any of them. Ever again. I guess that would technically make me a pagan wouldn't it? One that has no "god" or religion.

We watched 2 episodes of Miami Ink tonight. Makes me want to get some more work done. Maybe the one with my kid's names next. We love that show. I'm going to pierce my tongue too. Maybe tomorrow. They say the male recipient of a pierced tongue is in ecstasy. We'll see. You'll have to ask Royce when and if.

Saw a "Flying Spaghetti Monster" bumper sticker yesterday. It still cracks me up. He's kind cute too. He kinda represents that whole atheisim thing to me. And he is cute. Click here for his cute picture. http://eris.livejournal.com/1826384.html
He has his own church too: http://www.venganza.org/. Church of the Flying Spaghetti Monster.

We are going for a drive on Saturday. Up to Jerome and Prescott. I need to get out of Phoenix for a little while. We all do. And it has been snowing alot. All the mountains to the north of Phoenix have had snow on them this last week. And you can see it from here. Its AWESOME. I love Jerome.

Tyler has to have a root canal tomorrow (actually later today, its 2:40 am). That should be lots of fun for him.

I'll let you know how the festival goes.