Mr Lucero died a couple of days ago. Apparently the day the paramedics were at his house they took him to the hospital where he was diagnosed with pneumonia. A few days after that he went to Hospice. So the feeling I got wasn't one of immediate death, but it was on its way. I will miss him. He was a really nice man. And one of those people/things that have always been in my life - a constant - that is no longer here. I'm sure there will be alot more constants that disappear.

I tried to work everynight this week. I have to make 2 house payments by January 2nd. So this was the only paycheck to do it in. I worked one extra shift last week, as soon as I found out what I needed to do, was cancelled on Sunday, worked an extra 8 hour shift on Monday, was cancelled Tues night, and now have worked my regular shifts of Wed, Thurs, and Fri this week. Tonight, Saturday night they have a hole in the schedule and I signed up for it. Hopefully they will need me at 7pm and I will get to work on my floor with all my same patients. That would be ideal. But I will offer to float. I just really need this shift. I've been lighting candles all week and meditating on it all week. I really need this shift. I will be in trouble with the house if I don't.

I feel like I haven't seen my family all week. I hate that. But I've got to make this payment.

Still have some Christmas shopping to do. For the kids mostly. And we won't be able to go to our hotel this year. I guess that really is a luxury, but the kids love it so much. I will have to plan better next year. I do hope to go to ZooLights though.

Tyler and Taylor have been in the midst of a break up for the last month. Off and on again. I think they finally patched things up and are back on. I'm glad for that. I really like Taylor, and I know she really loves Tyler.

WARNING: LOST update (in case you haven't seen it yet Stacey)

We watched all of Season 5 of Lost except the two last episodes. We will probably watch these on Sunday night. It is so good. I can't wait until February. I hope Season 6 explains alot of things. Like the smoke monster. And who Jacob is. The show just sucks me in. Can't wait. And I know Juliet dies. Good. I'm tired of her. And I'm loving the storyline about Miles. The time travel is a little exhausting, but I think I'm keeping up ok. I was a little sad to see Faraday go. He kind of grew on me. Charlotte I didn't like, but would have kept her around for Faraday. And I'm getting really curious about the storyline with Widmore and Eloise Hawking. And can't wait till Jin and Sun see each other again. Hmmmmmmmmmm. Anyhow - yeah, sucked in.

Stacey, right now I only have internet at work, and it won't let me access your blog anymore. You must have put some hot pictures on there or something, cause it denies my access. Didn't want you to think I was ignoring you. I was reading like everyday, but then all of a sudden it won't let me anymore.

Anyhow, hope everyone is having a nice Christmas.