DNR

Tonight - I'm tired. I'm not mentally here.
This is my 4th nightshift - and I'm just tired.
I'm tired of taking care of other people.
One in particular - I've had for 5 shifts now.
I know her, and like her.
Very sweet little old lady.
Someone's mom.
But she has so much going on ......
Blood clot in her lung
Heparin drip
Feeding tube
Blood transfusion
Magnesium replacement
Potassium replacement
Incision
Insicion bleeding due to the heparin that she needs for the blood clot
Accu check cause of the tube feeding
Not tolerating the tube feeding
Lasix and peeing every 5 minutes
Can't get out of bed without help
Unintelligible speech due to cancer of her neck

What we call
A trainwreck.

This and 4 other patients.

I'm
Just
Tired.

If I ever get like that.........
I want a bullet right through my medulla oblongata.

I think my next tattoo will be
DNR
my Advance Directive
right on my chest
so when they rip my shirt off for chest compressions
there is NO question when someone tries to code me.