Heather!!!!!!!!

Heather - I am your family. I miss you so much, you don't even know. I'm so glad you are here now. I gotta tell you that everything you are feeling is normal. In that period right after you get divorced, especially from someone like Mark (and Kirk) - all those feelings are normal. Especially the ones about the kids. But it does get better. I so remember being there. It will get better. And you did the right thing. I still remember sitting with you that morning at the Rail when you told me everything. It will get better. And I am always here. I would do anything for you. I honestly would do anything for you. I think you will find that writing here helps though.

I'm finding Yoga so helpful for me. It is something that I utilize throughout the week, after I've done it. That is the true practice of yoga. I think you would love it. If you want to come to my class its on Tuesdays at 5:45 to 7:00pm, close to my house, and its a beginner's class. And its only $8 bucks a class. I would love for you to come. You are in way better shape than me, it would not be difficult for you at all. And it feels so good. I can't believe you did a half marathon, OMG. You already are so fucking hot - not you gotta go and get hotter. I'm really impressed. I need to start running again. I started going to the gym. The adrenaline and seratonin it gives me has started to replace what I get from alcohol. But I still struggle with it. And I still drink. But I love the gym. I think I will start running again - I want to do a half-marathon with you. When is the next one? Maybe this is something we can do together - that would be so much fun. To train together for one.

We are so much alike girlie. I know our paths have to have crossed many, many times. We have a very old friendship. It was instant and familiar from the beginning. I have so much to say to you I'm having a hard time writing right now - I just need to see you. I'll be calling you shortly. And emailing you. I am so sorry for not being a better friend and keeping better contact. And I am so sorry that you are hurting, and I wasn't there for you. I just didn't know. But no more. I am coming back to the Copa, station 61. I have an interview with Martha tomorrow, which is really just a formality, she said she had a position for me. It will be on days - maybe you could switch to days again. I know what working nights does to us. Come work with me on days. You know you will be up on 61 alot. I won't be doing any maternal/child until Maria is gone. I will be staff on 61.

Ryan still wants to play with Jake.

Now all I need if for you and Nikki to meet.

I love you. I'll be talking to you soon.