Its Sunday morning. A little after noon. I'm sitting on the couch, eating a Subway, having a glass of wine, watching the Travel Channel. "Passport to Europe." The closest I will get to Europe for years I am sure. Ryan just woke up. Royce and Shi Shi still asleep. The older kids in Iowa. Very peaceful. But I'm not ok today. Not sure why. I think I'm having a hard time with the kids being gone for a week. In Kirk's care for a week. I have the whole day. Not working tonight. The apartment is trashed, the dogs got into the trash while we were gone yesterday. It was nice to see Heather yesterday. She has a beautiful house. Its nice to be able to hang out with other couples, that have kids, and just chill. It was very nice. She has a mister system that makes the whole backyard look like a witches pot. Fog everywhere that you can't see through. Surreal and peaceful at the same time. You don't find a relationship very often where you go to someone's house for the first time, and feel comfortable just going to the fridge, and you know that her house is your house, and its ok, and you know its ok. I love Heather. I really do. I hope she feels better soon. I know she will.
Shi shi just got up. I love the way kids, especially little ones, look in the morning.
So I guess its cleaning day. And relaxing day. Maybe we will drive somewhere with the little ones today. And tonight maybe just curl up on the couch with Royce. I need to be with Royce today. I need to have a day and night with him. We have been so busy lately. I just need to be "us" tonight. That statement may not make sense unless you are me or him. Sorry.
The very attractive-early 20 something - skinny - blond - next door- neighbor- with the pink tank top and low riding yoga pants to show off her sexy midriff just walked past my window. Nice. I'm thrilled. So happy for Royce.
I used to complain about my nasty neighbors. Be careful what you ask for, right? Seriosly, its better than Theresa. Maybe she's even nice.
Everyone is up now.
I miss my Tyler and Syd and Lyndsey.
I'll call them tonight.
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Take the time to relax and have your "us" time with Royce. Plenty of other times when that can't/doesn't happen so now it's just a matter of realizing that you worrying about the kids being gone with Kirk won't fix anything that comes up. It just won't. I'm glad you're making new friends and you know that Royce doesn't care about the plastic neighbors, you're right, anything's better than the crazy pigeon lady.
I'm slowly getting ready for my move. I realize that I need to get rid of the stuff that I keep because someone in my family used to have them. I mean, honestly I don't need all that kitchen crap. I will NEVER use it. Time to re-evaluate just exactly who's life it is I'm living anyway.
I'm glad you're out of the city and I hope you have a good day. That backyard sounds wonderful.
Been watching 6 Feet Under. If you've never seen it before, I recommend it. One of the characters is the sister of the mom and she lives in a beautiful house in a canyon, lots of trees and art etc. I always think of you when I see that place. Wish I were living in something like that. I think I might try to create one in wherever I end up.
:)
Love you
I could totally feel your melancholy mood in this post. I'm sure it's tough when your kids are gone. Hope you and Royce can have some closeness. I know what you mean, sometimes I just need some strong arms to wrap me up. My man has been SO busy, I've hardly seen him. This has been the case for years and it's really taking a toll on our relationship. God, I hope we can hang on... I am determined to make this work. He's a great guy, just sometimes I wish I felt like I was FIRST priority in his life.
Thankfully, I have my kids to keep me company, but when they are gone, I get REALLY lonely.
Anyway, didn't mean to get off on a rant there...
Thanks for being a friend. I'm so glad I met you guys online! :o)
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